"Not every self-destructive tendency is the same. Some people tread the border between recklessness and destruction simply to find the one who will "save" them from themselves.
They utilize actions and emotions as beacons - lighthouses, if you will - in hopes that they will attract at least a marginal amount of attention.
These individuals are not truly indifferent, or even truly foolhardy. They are needy: Driven by a supposed loneliness or discontent, they act out just as children do. These people are easy to spot, often adopting characteristics that, however contrived, will garner some amount of compassion or sympathy. These people are common.
But there are others. These individuals are not common, although it seems they follow the same modus operandi of attention-seekers. They are almost impossible to help, for they have no interest in eliciting any response from others. And herein lies the dilemma: To put it bluntly, they do not seek rescue or sympathy or even acknowledgement from their own personal terrestrial Christ. They want someone to watch them die."
I don't write with much at stake: only everything.
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